This is a bit of a boring week blog-wise. I don't have a lot to talk about. So hey, here's one of my favorite subjects, my perpetual state of poverty. Hey, what can I say, it's a slow news day.
This weekend is my sister's wedding shower. It's being held at my place and unfortunately due to summer and people going in six different directions, it'll be a small crowd, but what can you do? There are two maids of honor, me and my sister's friend. I'm taking care of the coffee, tea, wine, cheese & crackers, and providing fruit and the venue. The other MOH sent out the evites, is getting the fruit dip and a dessert. Instead of gifts, we're doing a money tree. Good for my sister who needs it. Not so good for me who doesn't have any of it. Not quite sure where that cash is coming from after I pay for supplies for the shower. Is it too late to raffle off a kidney on eBay do you think?
My sister and I had a slight argument about money a couple of weeks ago. Not even sure you could really call it an argument. More like an exchange that got started that I cut off short because I was in a pissy mood to start, irritated by what she said, and didn't want to get into it at work. I was going to get my mother to relay the shower info to my grandmother since she was going to be talking to her anyway and it would save me a long distance call. Plus I wanted to make sure my grandmother understood because she's getting older and sometimes I don't know if she's really taking in what I'm saying. I figured Mom could get the message across and make sure it was understood better than me. Anyway, my sister got on my case about having my Mom make the call for some reason and then we got into it about the fact that I was flat broke. She reminded me I had two years notice about the wedding so I had plenty of time to save up. Right.
You know, I get that it's a big deal and everything, I really do. But geez, it isn't like everything in my life got put on hold when she decided to get hitched. I wish it had. That would have made things much easier. And I get that she's under stress too trying to pay for everything she needs, which is probably why we were snapping at each other, because we don't usually do that. But the thing is, I have been trying to put money away. And I've even succeeded a few times. But then something would come up. Vet bills, writing expenses, regular expense, unexpected expenses. Car repairs, things needed for the house, a bill that came in higher than I budgeted for. It seems like I would just start making some headway and something would inevitably come up and knock me back behind the financial eight ball.
And now, on top of everything else, I have to pay over $200 for a dress I'm probably never going to wear again (although it is quite pretty), a bra to go with it the halter top style, a pair of shoes, the shower, a gift for the wedding, money for the shower's money tree, alterations on the dress. The list never seems to end and I still have no idea where the money for it is going to come from. And my sister is begrudging me the fact that I wanted to save a couple bucks on a long distance phone call. Anyway, it cheesed me off.
When I get married...if I get married...I'm either eloping or doing a quickie civil ceremony. No fuss. No muss. All this wedding hoopla seems like a big headache to me. I'd rather spend the money on a nice trip.