Wednesday, November 09, 2005

The Unrelenting Power of the Crush

So I’ve been nursing this powerful crush for a little while, say, oh I don’t know, since about August or so. I could pinpoint the exact day, probably narrow it down to the hour in which it hit me, but I’d hate to look quite that obsessive so I’ll refrain. Oddly enough, just before this illustrious event occurred, I had been bemoaning the fact that it had been a very long time since I’d experienced that feeling and that I really missed it. But now that it’s plopped itself down on the doorstep of my mind, kicked down said door, marched in and made itself at home…well it’s kinda taken over. I hadn’t actually been expecting that.

But now he’s on my mind constantly. He won’t leave. And worst of all, I hardly ever get to see him, so he’s actually managing to do this from afar, which is a bit disconcerting. And yet quite enjoyable at the same time. And yet disconcerting. Did I mention disconcerting? I mean, I’ve had crushes before but this one just feels different but I can’t quite pinpoint why. It’s almost like I’m waiting for the other shoe to drop, but I’m not sure if the shoe is going to be some sexy little number that I’ll want to try on, or a big ole honking clodhopper that Stacey & Clinton would disown me for wearing.

Maybe it’s the wait that’s disconcerting, the wondering if it will always just be a crush, or if maybe there’s a possibility of more. Or maybe it’s the possibility of more that freaks me out.

You know, my health plan covers psychiatric counseling. Perhaps I should look into this…

14 comments:

Nikki said...

I LOVE crushes! Nothing makes you feel giddier!!!!

I have a crush on this guy who works at my head office ... waaaaaay far away. So it's perfect! I can get all gooey when he sends me emails AND I don't have to worry that I'm doing anything to piss off the hubby. Nice and innocent, just the way I like it!

I'm with you -- I don't get them very often, but man, they're fun when they happen!!!

Do you think you'd ever hook up???

Kelly said...

Well, the psychic I visit every year gave me a detailed run down of the guy I end up with and so far...well he's fitting a lot of the criteria. And she's pretty bang on with stuff. She called the documentary, the writing contests, all this other stuff. Plus there's just this gut feeling. But maybe that's just wishful thinking. Or gas. I dunno...

Peggy said...

Ooh, I love crushes! And I love hearing about them. I had a crush on a co-worker for years, only thing that kept me going into work! Then he moved and that was that! Fun was over.

Something about the mystique of what he could be. The fantasy. I'd say go for it, but then doesn't it always work out that the real thing never measures up to the fantasy?

Melissa Marsh said...

Ah, crushes. I remember those days...

But here's as question. Can you still be married, have a crush, and that's not being unfaithful to your hubby???

Kelly said...

I think it's only unfaithful if you act on it. Otherwise, it's human nature.

don't call me MA'AM said...

I had a crush on a co-worked once --this was before I started dating my husband. Every time he came around, I lost my ability to speak coherently. It was SO embarrassing. Once, when we all went out to lunch together, he sat in the front seat of my car and went through my CD collection. I warned him that it was a bit eclectic. Afterward, he just looked at me funny and said, "Umm, yeah, that's pretty eclectic." I thought I'd die. Luckily, he moved away. Crush over.

don't call me MA'AM said...

oops.. that should be CO-WORKER, not co-worked.

Anne M said...

So, are you going to do anything about this crush? Do you know if he is available?

I love living vicariously through other people

Kelly said...

I have no idea if he's even available. I keep getting a brain freeze on when I see him and forget to do a damn ring check. But if he is available...then I'll think of something. I just have no idea what.

Michelle said...

Awww! Crushes are such fun. :) Hope he returns the feeling.

Tess said...

Hmm - I posted a comment yesterday, but it appears to have been sucked into cyberspace somewhere.

I'd asked if this was the guy who visits your office from the out-of-town branch.

Fingers crossed he'll get a transfer :-)

Am pretty sure you don't need counselling for this - crushes are pretty normal!

Kelly said...

Yeah, that'd be him. No chance of a transfer though, which sucks.

Tess said...

Hmmm - any chance YOU can get transferred? *g* Just kidding. Any idea when he's coming to visit again?

Kelly said...

No, probably some time in the new year. I suppose I could get transferred but the idea of living that far away from the ocean sends me into spasms.