Thursday, September 28, 2006

When It All Comes Together

I love it when you read your own story and get so caught up in it that you forget it's yours. You forget that you've read it a hundred times over and you already know what's coming; that you can probably recite the dialogue verbatim without even reading what's on the page. It's moments like that when I know I'm doing the right thing, not just in my writing, but by writing. It's the one place in the world that belongs to me. The rest is just window dressing--the things that fill up my time and making the longing to write full-time even stronger.

I have found over the years that I can fit in and adapt to most situations. But writing is the only place I feel truly at home. It's what gets me out of bed in the morning and makes me look forward to the next day. There are other things in my life that I love, but this--the writing--that's the part that fills me with passion. That's the part that makes me realize I was meant to do this and not doing it would be living a lie.

I think I've always known that deep inside. When I didn't write there was always a part of me missing, an empty space that couldn't be filled no matter what I did. I'm glad I found my way back, that I decided to take hold of this with both hands and hang on for the rest of the ride. I can't quite imagine what my life would have been like if I didn't make that decision. The picture is rather fuzzy and not all that appealing. I like this one much better.

9 comments:

Melissa Marsh said...

What a great post! I, too, have no idea what I'd be doing if I didn't write. I know I'd have a big, black hole in my soul, though.

Tess said...

I feel pretty much the same way about writing and really can't remember a time when I haven't written. Even before I could actually write, I recall making up stories in my head.

And yeah, isn't it great when your own story just sucks you right in? I love when that happens :-)

Stacy Dawn said...

Good for you!!

Tempest Knight said...

I know what you mean! Even if I never sold any story, writing is very liberating. *wg*

Shelli Stevens said...

Writing is an addiction, if it's in you, you need to do it. I hear ya :)

Dixie Belle said...

Excellent Post, my dear. My feelings exactly!

Michelle said...

When you reach that point in your writing, you've hit The Zone. Love that. It means it will sell!! :) (thinking positive)

Julie S said...

Well said. I know exactly what you mean about filling that empty space. There's no turning back now.

MaryF said...

Awesome feeling, loving your own book!