The more I revise The Outlaw Bride, the more I get to know the characters. Characters that, after having finished the book (a few times...) I thought I already knew like the back of my hand. But doing this final round of revisions (and I swear this is it, at least until some kind editors requests that I make a few more) I am learning things about them they had kept to themselves up until this point. They keep surprising me. Sometimes in my mind, as I am constructing a scene, planning for it to go a certain way, and I see them wink at me as if to say 'watch this'. Then they totally take the scene over like I wasn't even there.
Geez, you think you know someone...
The revisions themselves aren't going quite as quickly as I had planned. I still want to be finished by end of September at the latest but I'm still back on Chapter 7, slogging away with new scenes and removing old ones. I have the last week in July off and I'm sorely tempted to skip going to the camp and hunkering down here to power through as much of the revisions as possible. I may just do that. I'll have to phone my mom and see just how set she was on having me down there. I don't want to bail on her if she was looking forward to it. Then again, all I was planning on doing was sitting on the couch, avoiding black flies and reading from my pile of TBR books.
But I can't lose anymore time on these revisions. I need to get this done and start querying agents and editors. I'm tired of always feeling like I'm working towards something but never getting there. Impatience is starting to eat at me and I'm feeling like I'm slipping backwards, losing momentum. I need to finish this on time and I think I'll need the week in July to do it. It'll also be a good test run to see if I can keep to a writing schedule when not working. Because someday I'd like to be able to do just that and know that I can do it.
I'll think of that week as a trial run to the life I really want.