You would think that someone with the time management skills I possess would be a better friend to the clock. But it is becoming glaringly apparent that no matter how much time I have, it is never enough. There are never enough minutes in an hour and never enough hours in a day to jam everything in it that I want to accomplish. I feel as if I am constantly playing catch up and never going fast enough to grab the carrot of completion dangling in front of me.
Now if I could just get back those eight hours from the day job...but alas, doing that would constitute living in a cardboard box, wearing rags, and driving...shudder...mass transit. The horror.
As things stand right now, I am squeezing about 1.5 hours in the morning to write. Not enough. I would love to get another hour in there, but that would mean getting up at 4:45 am, and I'm not sure my brain could function at that hour in the morning, at least not well enough to put together a cohesive sentence, let alone an entire paragraph. I would like to get in more workout time, but right now I have upped my walk to a run just to fit in a solid workout into the 40 minutes I do have. I wish I could find time to write here more too, but the workload at the day job has increased and I rarely have time on my hands like I used to.
Time with friends is limited, time with a new relationship is never enough, practicing the guitar every night is a pipe dream, and putting a dent in my TBR pile has become laughable.
When it becomes too much, I often close my eyes and mentally structure my days around the dream of writing full time. It reminds me of what I'm aiming for and what I'll do when I get there. Unfortunately, then I open my eyes, and my time is up and I wonder how the heck I'm going to make that a reality when it feels I'm running on the spot and getting nowhere.
Luckily even when my time management skills don't feel they're working at par, my 'never say die' attitude is still operating at full blast. I will get there. Somehow, some way I will find all the minutes I need, make the most of the ones I have, and make it to the top.
I'm a Capricorn after all. The mountain goat. It's in our nature to scale to the highest peak, even if we have to go around the rocky crags to get there.